Just watched Brooklyn (Netflix), a beautiful film about an Irish girl in the '50s who moves to New York. Resonated so strongly within me, the beauty and the fortune and the heartbreak of loving two places (or more), of having more than one home, the longing for the other home(s), the joy of saying hello again and the sadness of saying goodbye. I am a child of two cultures...my babies are children of three...my family of origin, now, of six...
Wednesday, 21 December 2016
Fun car journey this morning.
Toddler (mostly answered by me in the mini breaths between questions): "Why you hitting the brakes? And why now? And why slowing down now? And why are you indicating? And why did that car in front indicate? And why you hitting the brakes again? Mama, don't forget to indicate! Mama, slow down! Mama, go faster! Mama, beep that car, he's in the way! Why you hitting the brakes again?? Go faster, mama! And why didn't he indicate? Beep him, mama!"
Tuesday, 20 December 2016
Two migraines in two days. Out of drugs, so taking the kids' drugs! Getting all bad things out of the way before Xmas. Blinding headache but at least I can see. Dreamed I had a migraine again (and woke up with it) and in my dream I couldn't see properly but had to find every one of my son's (50 odd) toy cars hidden away in an extremely elaborate street scene, winding its way under tables and behind cupboards. A really difficult thing when half your vision is obscured by bright and shiny flashing lights! 😂
Friday, 16 December 2016
I do it because I remember desperately wanting this as a child. And because my kids love it. And because my eldest will tell me his fears and worries as his mind starts to relax and opens up (though it's rare I get the chance to get the big one to sleep these days). And because they cry if I don't and I hate the idea that crying is the last thing they'd do before falling asleep. We're always told not to go to bed angry, and I feel it's the same, for my kids, not going to sleep sad or lonely. I do it because it works very well for us. 💖
Wednesday, 14 December 2016
Beautiful multistorey roof parking. And so much space. Loving our new double buggy. Gorgeous walk in the park this morning. Fun at little gym with the kids. Cuddles on the sofa. Super helpful and funny toddler helped clear the table, did some dish washing, tidied his toys away and washed and chopped the mushrooms for our fajitas and extras for the freezer. Baby girl helped tidy toys too. Much to be grateful for today. 😍
Thursday, 8 December 2016
Successes of the week: boy had one full dry day (woo hoo!), he loved his gymnastics class and he loved his new nursery; and girlie can now climb a flight of steps, take 4-5 steps alone, make it through from 5.30am to 3pm without a nap and apparently post videos of herself eating kale on Facebook. 😂
Tuesday, 6 December 2016
Thursday, 1 December 2016
Tuesday, 29 November 2016
Having my mama here means that the man can work late; and that I get the baby to sleep, then I'm able to get the boy to sleep. I've missed his nighttime snuggles.
As he lay on my chest this evening I said "I love you lots and lots. You're my favourite little boy in the whole wide world."
Toddler response: "Awww, thanks mama."
Me: "I'm glad you're my son."
Toddler: "Awwwwww, thanks mama." [Lots of thinking] "Daddy's a son too."
Me: "Yes, yes he is."
Lots of wriggling and getting comfy. A few minutes later, toddler says, "Mama, I love you in the whole wide world!"
My heart totally melting and any crossness from the day has totally dissipated. 😍